I remember my childhood days when I was scared to even stay in my bedroom alone.. and that too when I can hear my family in the next room. For some reason.. the concept of ghosts, demons and such scary beings always tormented me. I dont know when and where it started but as far as I can remember.. fear had a big part to play..
I read Bram Stoker's Dracula at a very young age.. and though it scared the hell out of me, I still couldn't stop reading it. It was rather funny that once I finished the book, I was too scared to be in the same room with the book. Somehow I got rid of it. Add to that.. my dad telling me.. "Dude.. dont read such books after sunset" and I had no other place to hide than under my blanket. Dracula still scares me, though the Coppola version made him a love sick vampire.. well looking back.. I wonder which one is more scary.. a love sick vampire or a vanilla vampire ? I will never know.
Fear..makes me think.. I was / am afraid of heights.. acrophobia ? but offlate I am not that sure.. If I am really that afraid of heights then why would I be not scared when I am in a jet and looking down ? Why would I be not scared at all when I look down from a skyscraper observation deck ? I am beginning to attribute it to the "self confidence" and "security" more than the height.. I will be scared if I am standing on a tall building with no walls to prevent me from jumping.. so I think it is more about how much confident you are that you wont jump. I dont know ..I must ask people who are scared of heights...
It occured to me that the very same house where I lived alone for a few months.. sometimes make me scared.. How many of us suddenly turn back to see whether someone is standing behind us ? I notice that fear is more associated with the dead and death more than the living.. unless of course if it is a whodunnit mystery.
What am I gonna do when I actually encounter a ghost or a vampire one day... ? I think about it at times.. do I just say ... ok.. fine.. so there you are.. I always knew you are gonna come.. and now what do you wanna do ? For those who really think that "not being able to cry or shout out loud when something scares the hell out of you is a myth" .. no it isnt.. I have experienced it... and it will scare you more that you cannot control yourself and shout or cry whatever. Basic design flaw from god..
Do people who believe in god/s also believe in demons ? I think it should be mandatory for them to believe in demons. So I guess a majority of people do believe that ghosts exist.
Oh jeez .. why did I write all this.. How am I going to sleep tonight ?
4 comments:
I felt the same way as a child...& maybe do feel the same way even now..
I hate to stay alone at home..I keep the TV / music turned on..otherwise the silence in an empty house just kills me...
I guess its something that a lot of people go thru..
I too had felt the same many times...but years before, now it has changed...nowadays I hate sitting alone at home for N number of reasons but mainly what?, it is not because that I'm scared but it because that I'm sitting alone means my son Johann is not with me..and I hate my house without his screaming..howling..bycycling sound....running behind me always asking questions.. requesting for a drive thru highway...Oh God I'm gonno miss him for too long ..yeah 8 months I cant think about t..I donno how many short tripz I'll make during this 8 months to India....
Sree just try thinking about some good sweet memories which also gives a pinch of pain...may be you will not be scared even if you are alone in a castle.
Well that was a short narration of what can be a series of writings..!
I still remember a strange fear i had during my early school days.. I was afraid of travelling on hilly / high range roads... munnar, idukki, kattappana... to name a few where those narrow winding roads with steep inclines and sharp turns... the most scary part was the way KSRTC / private buses used to move on especially when climbing down a hill... a feeling that they've gone breakloose and is going to hit head on or to slip down from edge of a cliff!!... real "run away bus" kind of a feeling...
Good One SreeKanth !!! I too have come across those spots many a times in the past as a kid.....
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